Sometimes I’m afraid I’ve tried to domesticate God.
I’ve tried so hard to believe, to wrap my mind around his impossible being, that I’ve taken away parts of who he is. I’ve turned the magnificent Aslan into a tiny house cat.
I’ve taken a powerful, mighty Creator and reduced him to so little. I think a part of me would prefer a safe, loving, quiet father who stays silent. Someone who takes care of me when I need it, but stays out of the way when I want to do things on my own.
“He’s wild, you know. Not like a tame lion.” - The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe
I don’t even think of God as a tame lion anymore. I think of him as that house cat, safe and predictable.
But God isn’t safe.
“Who said anything about safe? ‘Course he isn’t safe. But he’s good. He’s the King, I tell you.” - The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe
God is a father who loves us, protects us, calms us, and cares for us. But he is so much more than that. He is the King of kings and the Lord of lords. He isn’t a quiet house cat purring in your lap or standing silently in the snow outside your home. He is the mighty lion, Aslan, and he isn’t predictable. He isn’t safe. He isn’t comprehensible.
To believe in God, to believe in Jesus Christ, is to accept the impossible. To accept things the finite, mortal mind may never truly understand. How can I fully understand the Annunciation, the Transfiguration? I barely even understand what those words mean, let alone how they actually took place.
As I loosen my grip on the things I think I know about God, I’m trying to understand that the probable impossible is real. I’m starting to rethink long-held notions, and return to the ideas I had as a child. The idea that God is a wondrous, infinite, awesome being. And that His existence is seen as impossible by many. Logic isn’t how one gets to know God. There is no formula to being a Christian, despite what some churches say. Sometimes, I think all we need to do is open our eyes…
“Will the others see you too?” asked Lucy.
“Certainly not at first,” said Aslan. “Later on, it depends.”
“But they won’t believe me!” said Lucy.
“It doesn’t matter.”
- Prince Caspian
**I’m slowly working my way through Walking on Water by Madeleine L’Engle. Pretty much this entire post was inspired by a few pages of the book. And this won’t be the last. If you haven’t read it yet, I highly recommend you do.**